I'm right I'm always right and you're wrong wrong wrong

Come hear and let me tell you till you bleed it


The day I learned to drop the need to prove myself right

Was a great day

It was the day I earned a key

A key that spells out freedom

from such silly effort

I notice that I am a thousand, one steps ahead of it all now

Commonplace lost its utility

I have looked upon the rearview mirror long enough

Stepping Stone

It has been a lot of fun

The secret in my pocket beckons

Division is in My Cells

She Said Steel YourSelf

that it is good advice

but i tried to steel myself today when i really needed it and I couldn't do it...I wasn't able to save my self from diving head long

headlong

into

despair nation way

And the greatest, and what may be called the original sin of the human mind

is sloth, it's over-simplification. We want to think that there is only one cause for every given phenomenon, therefore there is only one cure--there is not! This is the trouble: no phenomenon on the human level, which is a level of immense complexity, can ever have a single cause-- we must always take at least a half a dozen conspiring factors into consideration . . .
-- Aldous Huxley, 1960

Outer Planetary Perspectives and Space Noises

For a full day after my last psychotherapy visit, I was very anxious and upset. Counselor and I talked about "Dr" and that stirred up the huge cauldron of emotions that I have left tied to him. I have come away from that therapy/client relationship with my Dear "Dr" with many unresolved expressions, feelings, emotions, thoughts, etc etc... Time has been good to me as far as distancing the heartbreak of our parting. But to stir it up, investigate it, study it like counselor and I did, brought so much of it back to me.

It has been a year more or less that I became aware, on those heavy levels that I was soon to be without him "Dr". The particular placement of the planet at this time of year does something to stir up my feeling towards him in that way too I see. The particular placement of the planet this time of year...that effect is very worthy of reflection. Places on Earthly planes of perspective are recollective of instances gone by, so it only serves to reason that the orbit of the earth, the specific places in its oblique circle, stir up memories and images much the same way...aaah "Dr"...I reflect upon you so much, you have to be a satellite of mine...

My Personality Hurts...

It bends, sways, and settles
harms, hurts, and meddles
lifts, drops, flies,
keeps me on an ever ready ride

Spiritual Emergencies...

"I'm very spacious about this kind of thing, because I've seen people spend time in catatonic stupors in mental hospitals as a result of drugs, and later they turn out to be more effective as human beings, more alive to the moment, than people that went through Harvard and came out summa cum laude. Even with my relatives, whose kids got doped and started to fall apart, and the parents put them in a treatment program, because they freaked because the kid wasn't going anywhere. And I understood the parents' fear, but when I looked at the parents' own lives, I thought, what is it they're trying to do? They're trying to justify their own lives., which has a completely dysfunctional mythology connected with it. And if the kid says, "I don't want to play the game", is that health or is it sickness? Are you asking them to be initiated into a pathological system?

Ram Dass